Wednesday, June 20, 2012

The first time I heard of Hunter S Thompson was the year I turned 19

He was an advertising guy I met through work 
High rolling with the edge that comes from having your ideals ground away to nothing
On the brink of a second marriage he clung to me, a girl precisely half his age
With fresh libertine ideals, an open heart and youthful beauty
I must have seemed like the perfect excuse to ruin his engagement

We had been out that night, drinking till we stumbled 
Sobering up on lines of overpriced cocaine heavily cut with MDMA
Useful in disguising the quality of what  passed at our end of the world
By the time we made it back to his apartment we had reached some sort of equilibrium 
We sat in his window seat watching the city, battering tides of weather lashed the building

The passage he chose was so appropriate it can't have been deliberate
Looking at him, I could almost see the high water mark
That place where his wave had broken and rolled back

6 months


I wonder, she said, why it is you don't fit
The sums make sense, perfect alignment
And yet there you are, disjointed from reality
Like some phrase to the left of my tongue
One that feels right, but cannot be articulated

I can feel the machinery grinding over
The misplaced bump of your existence
Smoothing away rough and raw emotion

The world is getting smaller
Soon it will be christmas again